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2011-12-10T01:49:00.002+08:00

这目的地已离我越来越远。寻找这目的地，似乎变成了一个遥远的梦，而我也感到厌倦了... ... 还是继续向前走吧！总有一天我一定会找到我的容身之处。:)

2011-11-26T00:20:00.003+08:00

傻瓜-温岚

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜

原来我也是个傻瓜，一个一心一意，却毫无目的地付出的傻瓜。

2011-09-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

The same after all. How disappointing...

2011-09-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

September, a month with lots of departures. It's a happy departure as our friends are all gonna embark on a new journey to pursue their dreams. However, it's inevitable to feel the emptiness without their presence.

Just sent Audrey off at the airport. Just a couple of days ago, I got over the sadness I'm gonna face when I bid farewell to my best friend. I keep telling myself that I should be happy instead becos they're gonna have fun studying there. I didn't expect myself to feel sad when we finally parted at the airport. I won't be seeing this person whom I used to see everyday for the next year...

This makes me wonder how I'll feel when it's chewfei's turn... Sighs... Beyond imagination. HAHA that's too exaggerating. Hope she doesn't see this. I believe this will only make her feel worse...

Nonetheless, all the best to all my beloved friends who are flying abroad to pursue their dreams! :D

2011-09-07T11:49:00.003+08:00

Waaa time flies. My bday is coming soon (again). For some reason, I don't look forward to my bday at all, unlike the previous yrs. I'm just not in the mood to celebrate. Wonder what kind of bday I'll spend this yr. I hope I can spend the whole day with my loved ones cos I feel happiest when I hang out with my loved ones! :D I don't fancy receiving many presents or wishes frm many people. I just wish to spend my birthdays with my loved ones, every year in my life if possible. :D

2011-08-27T02:39:00.003+08:00

Give me a new blank book, a flame and a torch. Last but not least, give me some luck! :)

2011-08-03T02:15:00.002+08:00

Because Of You

I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
'Cause my heart so much misery

I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you, I am afraid

I watched you die, I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young, you should have known
Better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt

Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you, I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

2011-06-29T01:17:00.004+08:00

Haha it's been a long time since I last posted on this blog....

Today's been a nice day for me. But I don't know why I'm feeling sad all of a sudden, as though I'm suffering from depression LOL! I just feel like listening to songs and tearing... Lol...

Frankly speaking, I have no idea why I'm feeling depressed. This is definitely not pms btw. HAHA! However there's this one thing that has been bothering me lately. Some time back I predicted that this would happen. You made promises to assure me that it wouldn't happen, but you broke your promises. ): Do I still matter to you now? ):

2011-03-12T00:27:00.002+08:00

Sighs. I'm scared. Nowadays I feel that I've been changing unknowingly, into someone whom I don't really know.

I don't like who I am now because I seem to have changed for the worse. Selfish, self-centered, arrogant, lazy, stupid, insensitive, demanding, timid, low self-esteem, forgetful, careless etc... Haha in short, all these make me an useless person. I'm conscious abt it. I wanna change, but... I can't seem to control it... Unlike the past when everything has been smooth-sailing, many things seem to be going against me now... I'm so scared that one day I'll lose everything. Perhaps I'm just not the cut in the first place; perhaps I've always been wearing a crown that's too big for my head.. Lol...

I used to be extremely optimistic because I hate to be depressed. Sometimes I just can't help it. It's inevitable to lose faith after multiple failures. Sometimes I also wonder if nothing has changed at all, it's just me being depressed and hence over-sensitive with whatever that's happening to me. I don't know anymore. I've lost the ability to judge between right and wrong now. I don't dare to judge. Sometimes I wish the almighty God can be my friend, so He can tell me what has gone wrong and tell me how I can get out of this.

Sighs. I just feel so lost and scared. I don't know what's going on anymore; everything seems to be beyond my control alrdy. ):

2011-01-15T12:03:00.004+08:00

If someone wants to be a part of your life, they’ll make an effort to be in it. Don’t bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn’t make an effort to stay.

Saw this on facebook, Beehiang's status. Haha how true eh? Isn't it very tiring to make effort for people who don't even appreciate your efforts or reciprocate your efforts?

If you think you havent done enough for the people you really treasure, it's time you take the initiative to do smth for them and reciprocate their love for you. If you only realise after you lose it, im sorry, IT'S TOO LATE TO APOLOGIZE~...

2011-01-05T22:43:00.002+08:00

I think Jason Mraz is a talented musician! Love his singing, compositions and humour! haha! Check this out!

I like the middle part where the both of them immitated the trombone and trumpet respectively! Damn cool! :D I like the guy doing the harmony too! If u realise, his 'lalalalala..' has crescendo and decrescendo! hahaha! Cool ttm! :D

Now check out the lyrics! I think it's quite well written!

Life is Wonderful

It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a story
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
It takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

La la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Al la la la la

It takes a night to make it dawn
And it takes a day to make you yawn brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
It takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is so full of
Ah la la la la la la life is so rough
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is our love
Ah la la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
It takes a loss before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to make you care
It takes a hole to make a mountain

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life is meaningful
Ha la la la la la life is wonderful
Ha la la la la la life it is...so... wonderful
It is so meaningful
It is so wonderful
It is meaningful
It is wonderful
It is meaningful
It goes full circle
Wonderful
Meaningful
Full circle
Wonderful

NICE RIGHT!

It takes two friends to build a friendship. What's a friendship when only one makes the effort to sustain it?

2010-12-13T13:00:00.003+08:00

Valuable lessons.

I realised that successes and failures aren't the most important things in life. So what if we have succeeded? Indulge ourselves in the joy of success forever? We'll never progress from where we were and we'll face failure eventually. So what if we have failed? Wallow over the pain of failure? Similarly, we'll never get to our destination and we'll just drift further and further away from it. Regardless of success or failure, there're all temporary. 胜勿骄，败勿馁, all we need to do is to keep progressing. Never give up, just keep trying and trying. (:

In every NAC comp that I've watched, I always realise that guys and girls play differently even if they are playing the same piece. I think it's the nature of the genders. This year I only watched erhu open cat's finals. The set piece was Hongmei. All the finalists were guys except one. At the slow part, the difference was very obvious. All played well, but the feelings expressed were different. The guys' versions were 'manlier' while the girl's was gentler. Same goes for the loud and stronger parts, the guys played better becos the strength was just right while the girl's seemed a little weaker. If a guy can play like a girl at gentle parts or if a girl can play like a guy at angsty parts, it would be perfect! :D Haha!! Ok, this shall be my new aim! Besides, I'll admire those who can achieve this! It's not easy you know, to break the limits of the nature of ur gender! hahaha! But I just met someone who's like this! I watched the prize winners' concert last night. The winner of the Sheng open cat was awesome. HE PLAYED LIKE A GIRL! Of course I dont mean he's gay or sissy, but the music was.... (see, it's beyond words). HAHA! Look forward to more of such performances! (:

Yesterday's concert was really fantastic. I enjoy watching good performances with nice reportoire. All performances were great, but the item that touched me the most was the percussion item by Tao Nan Pri Sch. In terms of music and technique, they're indeed not the best last night. But it was touching to see a group of pri sch kids fighting for a common goal. Their piece was tough, but you could see their strong determination in playing the piece well. In this world, there're many skilful players. They can touch the audiences' hearts by playing melodious tunes, but they may not be able to touch their hearts by playing music that's genuinely touching. In my opinion, the only way to play touching music is to have strong determination, passion and attitude.

Im glad that I've learnt such valuable lessons, at least I know how I can improve myself from where I am now. But I realise that I have a long way to go... @.@ *gasps*

2010-12-11T01:04:00.004+08:00

Haha... Am I feeling tired or am I numb of everything already? I don't know why I have no interest in anything. Besides, I'm beginning to feel that things are beyond my control...

I don't know what people are thinking, I don't know why some people do certain things, I don't know what will happen to me, I don't know whether to believe people's words... Speaking of promises, I've a vivid impression of someone telling me harshly that promises are meant to be broken.

Perhaps I'm just too lousy to understand all these, that's why things are beyond my control and I'm losing faith. And because I'm losing faith, I feel lost; I don't know what to do, I don't know how to make decisions anymore.

I think I've changed. I'm becoming more and more cowardly. I don't conquer challenges anymore, I try to escape. I know very well this isnt the way to live life becos I can't escape forever and it's very irresponsible to leave problems unsettled. But why am I succumbing to such an irresponsible move? Because I've lost faith. I don't know what to do anymore. Everything seems to be beyond my control.

Geez, I need a life advisor.

2010-12-05T21:59:00.004+08:00

Somehow I feel quite happy today. Happy not just becos ge had an outstanding performance, but I'm also happy for my friends at the same time.

This is yr is indeed a crazy year for many of us. Commitments pile up as we all grow older. This yr, most of us were either tied down by uni exams, A'lvls or O'lvls. In addition, many of us r involved in the competition too. I have to take my hat off those who also take part in the ensemble category as well cos their practices are very hectic. By today, this crazy period is almost over for most of us. I'm really happy for these people cos we have finally survived through this misery and achieve freedom! Not forgetting those who have to continue fighting in the finals, all the best n do us proud! Haha!

NAC comp is one of the highlights of ge. Most of us look forward to this event becos it's the time when we all bond closer to one another. Despite being tired from the intense practices, despite eating the same food for every meal provided, despite having limited room spaces, we still enjoy the experience as it is the company and team spirit that keep us going. In fact, all these are the little things that we rmb ge for.

In the long battle of nac comp, my favorite part is always the moment after they announce the ensemble category's results. Cheering in joy all together, camwhoring, wreaking havoc on the bus ride back to the cc, having late night supper tgt treated by zls, all these are the best moments. Due to A'lvls, I couldn't commit myself to the ensemble practices, so I helped out as a runner. Sadly, unlike previous years, ge didn't cheer as loud as before when we knew we got into finals. On the bus ride back, the bus was empty and pretty silent. What happened this yr? Have we all become so weary that we can't even lift our spirits up? Or have we taken success for granted?

I miss being part of ge, esp after a long A'lvls break. I hope the finals would be a crazy one! Please give us a good ending too! :)

2010-11-28T19:43:00.005+08:00

Looking at this series of events coming to an end really makes me heave a sigh of relief. Life has been pretty miserable: mug everyday, practise all day long, no appetite, insomnia... Can't wait for these to come to an end, or rather, I'm looking forward to the day when I can finally "rest in peace" (literal meaning).

Currently I have 5 wishes. 2 have come true. The other three are pending. :P It'll be fantastic if all my wishes can come true...

Anyway, next week's the last battle- nac comp. Frankly speaking, i... have no confidence. Time's running out and I'm all to blame. It's indeed an unwise move to cramp everything tgt during this period of time. Previously my attention was spent on my grade exam pieces, now Im lagging far behind for my comp piece. I'm left with less than a week now. Furthermore, xls made us change into new strings. New strings take time to season. Will I be able to make it in time? :/

2010-11-09T09:18:00.020+08:00

Today marks the start of the long battle. It's gonna be tormenting, but im glad that it has finally started cos this would mean that the end will come very soon! Can't wait for my liberation to arrive! :D

~~9 Nov Chemistry P3~~

~~10 Nov General Paper P1&2~~

~~11 Nov Mathematics P1~~

~~12 Nov Mathematics P2~~

~~16 Nov Chemistry P2~~

~~18 Nov Physics P2~~

~~19 Nov Economics P1~~

~~22 Nov Chemistry P1~~

~~23 Nov Physics P3, Economics P2, Shiyue's erhu exam~~

~~25 Nov My erhu exam~~

~~27 Nov Jingying's and Weiqi's erhu exams~~

~~29 Nov Physics P1~~

~~3 Dec NAC Competition~~

FREEDOM!

2010-10-26T22:41:00.006+08:00

HAHAHAH! Smth damn funny happened just now! I was mugging at Chewfei's place and we were listening to 93.3 while mugging. Peifen was the DJ btw! So this is what happened...

Pf: 我有一个坏消息要宣布...

Both of us: *Raise our eyebrows, wondering what bad news it could be*

Me: Is it regarding Selina's case? (cos Selina got burnt while filming recently)

Cf: Maybe...

Pf: 这个坏消息就是 Paul 章鱼已经逝世了。在这里，我们来把下一首歌送给 Paul 吧！

*the next song started to play*

Both of us: *LOL*

Cf: Chey... Would anyone even cry over Paul's death? Anyway, why did she dedicate 陈绮贞's song to Paul?

Me: *realise that the song sounds familiar but cannot recall the name of the song* Eh wait... What's the name of this song?

Cf: Errr.... ＂鱼”!

Me: Hahahaha no wonder she dedicated this song to Paul! Cos there's no song that's called ＂章鱼＂!

Both of us: *LOL*

Me: Actually, she shouldn't play this song. Playing 张宇's song would be more appropriate.

Both of us: *Laugh even louder*

Cf: Omg, should tell Peifen abt this!

So Chewfei sent an sms over to the radio station.

Pf: 刚才佩芬点了陈绮贞的“鱼”给章鱼保罗。有一位听众，Chewy，就发简讯来问佩芬为什么选

择把那首歌点给保罗。她说保罗是章鱼，所以不应该点“鱼”，反而应该点播歌手，张宇的歌。

这是 Chewy 的朋友， Sheila Koo 的建议。好 lame 哦！

哈哈其实这个建议还满可爱，满有创意的啦！不过现在这个单元是“元气加油站”，是个给面对

考试的听众们加油打气的单元，而张宇的歌大多数都廷悲哀的。所以我们就不播张宇的歌好吗？

接下来佩芬安排了（谁谁谁）的歌。谢谢 Chewy 和 Sheila 发简讯过来！

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! DAMN FUNNY LUH!!! WE LAUGHED TILL WE TEARED! OMG...

Anyway, chewfei, my sixth sense tells me that u'll read this post today (ok maybe i'll be wrong). Nevertheless, JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU for math! NEVER GIVE UP! WE WILL CONQUER COMPLEX NUMBERS! hohoho...

2010-10-25T09:32:00.003+08:00

Life's full of choices and difficulties. It's always hard to decide what to do when we're stuck in such a situation.

I'm no exception; I always crack my brain just to think of the best solution for the situation. In fact, making a decision is easy, but making a good decision is what makes the process cumbersome. Everytime, I'd wish God is next to me to advise me on what I should do to achieve the best outcome. Haha of course this would never happen in reality!

On the flipside, this is such an irresponsible thought. Since it's my own problem, shdnt I be the one making my own decision? Getting someone else to solve the prob just to make things simpler for myself is way too irresponsible.

On the other hand, I was thinking perhaps decision making is one of the processes that we have to go through to make ourselves a better person. Should it be the right decision, we know what to do the next time; should it be a wrong decision, we learn from our mistakes.

My deductions sound logical right? Hahaha... I'm always like that. When I'm stuck in a situation, I'd whine and blame and think of all the 'what ifs'. Then I'll convince myself why I have to go through all these processes. After going one big round, I'm back to square one.

Sighs. What should I do?

2010-10-16T23:43:00.004+08:00

My bow is just like a duck; has wings but unable to fly. Argh. Why can't I do 飞弓?? Xls says it's actually not a difficult technique. I've been playing that for a yr plus, yet I still can't do it. 我的弓就是飞不起来啊!

I suddenly recalled smth lame that Randy once told me. One day during co prac, I asked Randy how to play 飞弓 cos I just can't do it no matter how I prac. I just can't play it for nuts! When I do, it feels as though I'm constipated. I've to restrict my actions and to do so, I'll hold my breath till I finish playing that whole string of notes. Lol anyway, Randy told me," oh, xls says eat onions and u'll be able to play!" I was such an idiot cos I believed his words! Lol! He was actually pulling my leg... =.=

Xls always praises him for immitating Heifetz well and playing like a violin. SIGHS. Considering his ultimate pro-ness, I really wonder how long he took to master it... Probably a few weeks when I still can't even do it after mths? I also wonder how he can play it so well!! Ahhh... *inferior*

2010-10-10T10:47:00.002+08:00

Hahaha! I've a joke to tell! Had erhu lesson just now and after me was this little girl (ok not little physically). While I was packing up, xls commented that she looks slim in her home clothes. Then she asked for her weight and she said she's 41kg! Xls went on to ask for her height and age. She's 162cm and.... SHE'S ONLY 11 YRS OLD! omg so young! Ok so here comes the joke.

Xls said I look like I'm in 160 range, so she asked for my height. =.= ||| I told her I'm not even 160 and she was shocked. LOL! I wonder if she's niao-ing me luh!! In fact, that girl is abt 10cm taller than me, how can xls not tell? Tsk...

Anyway, I feel both happy and angry abt my lesson. Happy cos the liulang I played was one of the best attempts! I felt THAT FEELING when I was playing it and I didn't stop! Angry cos I still suck at certain technical parts. Not that I can't do it. In fact I've been practising those parts in detail and I can play them after a few attempts, but I don't know why I always can't do it during lesson or when I play again the next day. Argh. Xls says I'm still not confident of those parts, that's why I'll get stuck when I reach those parts cos I'm scared of them. Argh. Infuriating right? Not that i cant, just that I failed cos of my own fears. Nvm, good thing it's just a technical prob. Can simply settle by practising more. Most imptly, I cannot let my fears or anxiety affect my performance during my exam and comp. JIAYOUUUU!

2010-10-09T22:33:00.005+08:00

Wheeee! Today's another great day! :)

Went shopping with the class girls at vivo today!

We had so much fun at Toys "R" Us! Suzie played those toys as though she's a little kid! Hahaha! Audrey and I enjoyed taking lots of unglam photos of her! :P OH! There's this cool toy that is able to repeat whatever u say! The moment u turn it on, it'll start recording. At first when we just figured its function...

Suzie: Hello, I'm an idiot.
Jennifer, Audrey, Erwina and me: *giggles*
Toy: Hello, I'm an idiot. *giggles*
All of us: *laugh loudly*
Toy: *replay our laughter*

LOL! damn funny lah! Suzie came across this toy sword and she attempted to slot in between her back n her backpack, acting like a swordwoman. Lol!!

After that, we saw a few 933 DJs, Peifen, Jiahui and Zhou Chong Qing! They were having an autograph session there. Audrey and I wanted to take a photo with Zhou Chong Qing but he walked away before we could approach him.

Then we went to Minitoons to buy the life size bear for Ms Chen's grad gift. Luckily we didn't buy earlier in the afternoon and luckily we didn't buy it after dinner, cos when we just went in, there was a 15 min offer- buy 1 life size bear and get 1 free! Whooooo~! Suzie was so tired from shopping that she totally ignored the woman promoting the offer. When the salesman told me and Audrey abt it, we were over the moon! We quickly told Erwina abt it and she was so shocked that her eyes almost bulged out! Hahaha!!! So we bought a 60 over bucks Teddy bear and got a 30 over bucks doggie for FREE! So happy! :D

Wheeee! I'm alrdy looking forward to more outings after A'lvls! :)

2010-10-02T23:31:00.013+08:00

I feel very blessed cos I've the best birthday this yr. Blessed becos I got to celebrate it for 4 consecutive days! :P

Day 1

Haha actually nth much lah. Mummy cooked meesua and eggs for me! <33 PS: I love my mother's meesua and noodles! They're the best (at least to me...)!

Day 2

THE MOST MEMORABLE BDAY CELEBRATION.

A birthday full of surprises. I love surprises and I've always wished for a bday full of surprises! I've finally got to experience it, but I realised that my heart may not be able to take it after all. HAHA!

Surprise #1

Chewfei and Layting reached my house at 1.45pm when we were suposed to meet at 2.30pm at Admiralty MRT Station. They wondered why I hadnt gone out cos it was quite late alrdy. So Ms Phang msged me to tell me she saw Dai Yang Tian at Woodlands MRT Station (to lure me out). I got so affected that I wanted to tell Mummy. Just as I turned back, I saw 2 unusual figures at the corridor. I thought, "Hmmm.. These two girls dont seem to be any of my neighbours..." When I took a closer look, I realised they were Layting and Chewfei! LOL!! Their plan of scaring me failed cos I was too fast for them to catch up! Well, at least I got escorted to the MRT station. XP

In the lift, they passed me a gift box. In the gift box, there're a red-beaded necklace which I've been longing for, a Cotton On shirt which I like and the skirt which I regretted not buying in Japan! Then they told me they were looking for the green dress that I like but to no avail. They even went to several outlets to look for it! So touched luh!

Yup, so we met Szemin at the station and headed to Orchard.

Surprise #2

Chewfei wrote a mini booklet for me. Though its a tiny gift, it's full of sincerity cos it's filled with words! I'll never be able to write so much! The story was very well-crafted too! Very Chewfei-ish! HAHA! PS: I love the Dai Yang Tian part the most! LOL!

Next, we shopped at Lucky Plaza for a while. In the midst of our shopping, they bugged me fo their icecream treat, so we headed to Orchard Central for Ben & Jerry's. Then Chewfei left us for a while cos she said she had to pass Juncen something. (ok lah, it was indeed a little suspicious cos chewfei suddenly sped up a lot. but layting tried to cover up by blaming chewfei for walking too fast despite being hungry LOL!) The three of us shopped at Forever 21 (at 313) while waiting. Szemin wanted to go to the toilet so we all went tgt. On our way, we met Liangyu and Weiliang. HAHA! Speaking of this, I must praise Layting for the improvement in her acting skills. She actually said, "Tsk, Liangyu uh... Go out with Weiliang when Moses is not around!" LOL!!

After shopping for a while, Layting received Chewfei's call, saying that she's at Orchard Central and she'll meet us there for the icecream.

Surprise #3

On our way there, Layting said she's waiting for us at the rooftop. Here comes her acting again. She said, "Whoa, the rooftop is a romantic place for couples, wonder what Chewfei and Juncen are doing up there!" LOL! (the rooftop part got me even suspicious! i even told layting and szemin that i had 不祥的预感!)

Me approaching the greatest surprise! hee!

When we finally reached the rooftop, I first saw Chewfei with Gerald (Ang). When I walked even closer, I began to see the rest of the people who were originally blocked by the restaurant! I felt as though I was dreaming cos I saw GE ppl, faccomm, Heeai and Yinkuan! I really thought I was dreaming cos you only see different groups of friends appearing in the same event in dreams!

the dream-like scene HAHA!

But I wasn't dreaming, everything was real! It was really great becos to me, the happiest thing is to spend time with my loved ones! Standing in a row, each of them held a letter which all connected to form "HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEILA"! (: It was realy heartwarming. Wanhua even got me a huge balloon! I must say this is the best surprise in my life because I really didnt expect any of these. In addition, I can usually sense oncoming surprises. LOL! I was SO SHOCKED that my cheeks became very hot then!

i was sooooo shocked that my cheeks were damn hot and i kept saying, 'ahhh, my heart cant take it anymore!'

We camwhored and proceeded to the restaurant for dinner! The GE peeps left and Hanqing came. We ate at Sphaggedies. They also got me the MOST DELICIOUS birthday cake ever! Such a perfect celebration right?

CREDITS
Wenhao, Ian, Nic chua, Ningyu, Yingda, Cheryl, Minron, Liangyu, Weiliang, Wanhua, Gerald, Hanqing, Heeai and Yinkuan,

THANK YOU FOR COMING AND MAKING IT A GREAT CELEBRATION! :D

SPECIAL CREDITS

PHANG CHEW FEI, LIM LAY TING & TOH SZE MIN

OMG! LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH THAT IT'S BEYOND WORDS! THANKS FOR KNOWING ME SO WELL, GETTING ME MY FAVOURITE GIFTS AND ORGANISING SUCH A THOUGHTFUL BDAY CELEBRATION! THANKS SO MUCH, BFF! <333

Here's a tribute for your efforts! :D
I've removed my idol poster in my room which has been around since i was p5 or 6. It's being replaced by....

TADA! HAHA! Yup, that will be the first thing I see when I wake up every morning! :D Never paste 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' cos it'll be funny to make everyday my bday right! :P

Not forgetting the MEGA balloon....

that is still floating in my room! HAHA! Fyi, this is the largest balloon I ever have in my life! Really! LOL!

Last but not least,

MY FAVOURITE PHOTO! HAHAHAHA! (this is an amusing photo! long story, so i shant elaborate here! (:)

Day 3

Faccomm celebrated bday for the sep babies! The cake was quite nice too! Quite similar to the prev one in fact! They wrote notes and slotted them into a photo album-like photo frame tgt with some other faccomm photos! Mr Teo also gave me a super ex present! O.O (haha not just me luh! he did the same for all fc members!!) Must really thank him for being such a sweet teacher!

Day 4

I was supposed to meet the 63 girls at 8.15am in school, but I was 20min late! :x By the time I reached canteen, they were all seated, prepared, waiting for my arrival so they could start the celebration! They bought a slice of really awesome raspberry cheesecake and a cheesestick! On top of those, they also bought me a duckie keychain which is also a torchlight, a cute doggie that says '旺旺来' (see the pun?) and a HUGE lollipop! HEE! THANKS SO MUCH! YOU GIRLS ARE REALLY SWEET! <3

Not just them, must also thank Ren Xiang for a cute hamster soft toy! :D

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Thanks everyone for the well-wishes! I'm really grateful to have such great friends like you guys! :D

2010-09-18T09:04:00.010+08:00

This time im gonna use a phrase (which i dont usually use) to describe the current state im in,

CUI TTM!!!!!

OMGOMG. I must be dreaming all along. Can't believe time FLIES so quickly, till i saw Wanhua's facebook update: 10 more weeks to NAC! Omg. *faints* Before NAC there's kaoji. And if my kaoji is round the corner, my students' kaoji will be round the corner too. Before kaoji is A'lvls. In short, all these events will arrive VERY VERY VERY SOON and... IM FAR FROM BEING PREPARED!!!

I must really thank Wanhua for giving me this wake up call. It's time i buck up even more. I can feel the stress coming to me again. GREAT. PLEASE WORK REAL HARD SHEILA!

2010-09-09T09:02:00.003+08:00

Coming, coming, IT'S COMING SOON!!! :D

All of a sudden I feel excited abt a certain day in this month! :P Not becos it's a special day to me, but I really look forward to the day when Phang Chew Fei, Toh Sze Min, Lim Lay Ting and I can gather and have a meal tgt! Really miss the days when we hung out tgt! (hello dudettes, my icecream treat has been delayed for 5-6 mths!) Meanwhile we shall jiayou for prelims! :)

WHEEEE.... Look forward to having 'taitai outings'!! <3

2010-09-06T00:59:00.005+08:00

A Walk To Remember...

Oh shucks... I'm gonna have puffy eyes the next morning. :/

Haha! I just finished a novel, A Walk To Remember. I read becos the review says it's touching and Cheryl also told me she cried while reading it.

When I was halfway through it, I thought the book wasn't as great as I thought because the story is quite expected. Shan't reveal abt the story lest I become a spoiler.

Considering the fact that I'm one who hardly cries, it's really surprising that I cried terribly while reading it. I can't believe that it made me cry so uncontrollably despite knowing how the story would develop (it's just too typical-love-story). Sighs, looks like I've grown to be much sentimental. But i must say that the title of this novel is really meaningful! Whatever the case, I highly recommend this novel, especially to those romance novel lovers! :)

2010-08-31T22:01:00.004+08:00

I have always feared for the arrival of A'lvls cos it seems like the highest barrier in my life. With the limitation of my physical attribute, this barrier is exceptionally hard for me to get over... ~HAHA jk!

I've never imagined myself taking such a 'GRAND' major exam in my life. Now, here it is. I rmb last year when i saw the seniors burying their heads in their books in preparation for A'lvls, I felt so glad that it wasn't my turn yet. Now, it's in a few months' time! HOWHOWHOW?!

On one of the days last year, I went to the toilet and heard a senior crying in the next cubicle. She was on the phone. Later I found out from her conversation that she's crying becos she was extremely stressed. I kinda freaked out when I realised how stressful A'lvls can be. I hope this will not happen to me, as well as any of my other friends... ):

God, please bless me and everyone else around me to be safe and sound throughout this challenging period! Best if you can turn our brains into extemely absorbant sponges! HAHA!

Anyway, today's Teacher's Day celebration. Was browsing through the facebook page and I saw some updates on NYGH's celebration. Whoa... I really miss being a nanyang student cos nanyang's teacher's day celebration is always very high! esp with highlights of certain teachers' performances! Not forgetting the class party before the concert! All of a sudden I'm reminded of Mrs Wong... Oh correction, should be Mrs Wong's icecream! HAHAHA! Jkjk! I miss both lah! She's really sweet! She lives in JB and she drives to school every morning, from JB! Despite the long journey to school, she bought tubs of icecream for our class for the party for both years that she taught us! ): Really miss those days when we could have so much fun in school, esp during breaks and after school! ):

2010-08-18T20:27:00.004+08:00

SCO Presents Elegant Tunes

Singapore Chinese Orchestra (SCO) proudly presents “Elegant Tunes” on 20 (Fri) and 21 August (Sat) 8.00pm, at the Singapore Chinese Orchestra Concert Hall.

The concert will be conducted by SCO Associate Conductor Quek Ling Kiong, and features the Singapore Premiere of “Erhu Rhapsody No. 4” with solo performance by Erhu Master Chen Chun Yuan.

SCO soloists Xu Hui (Guzheng) and Tan Loke Chuah (Percussion) will also take the stage with “Ru Man” and “Kebjar-Bali” respectively.

Currently an Associate Professor of Chinese Music at the Shanghai Conservatory of Music, Chen Chun Yuan is a prominent figure of contemporary Erhu academia.

Renowned for her unique style of playing, her music is reminiscent of the traditional Erhu performing technique, laced with delicacy and precision.

In Elegant Tunes, Chen Chun Yuan will be performing the solo in the Singapore premiere of famous Chinese composer Wang Jian Min’s “Erhu Rhapsody No. 4”, an intricate piece that is bound to bring out the best in Erhu Virtuoso Chen Chun Yuan.

Besides “Erhu Rhapsody No. 4”, SCO is also honored to perform, for the very first time in Singapore, “Ru Man”; featuring SCO Guzheng Soloist Xu Hui.

A multi award winning performer, Xu Hui is an accomplished Guzheng Master, captivating audience around the world with her mesmerizing style of playing.

Audience will be brought into a magical dimension through her enchanting solo in this concert. SCO Percussion Principal Tan Loke Chuah will be performing the solo in “Kebjar-Bali”. A traditional Balinese music tune originally performed by twenty performers, Loke Chuah take on the daunting task of performing the solo for this piece, illustrating the complex rhythmic patterns of the music.

SCO will also be performing another piece from Indonesia in the concert, “Colours of Gamelan”. Originated from the Java and Bali region, this piece, traditionally performing by percussion will be specially adapted for the Chinese orchestra, giving birth to new experiences.

Another performance to watch out will be “Gada Meilin”, a piece depicting the bravery and adventures of legendary Mongolian warrior of the same name.

GAHHH! i feel like watching this concert cos SCO's gonna play the Erhu Rhapsody No. 4! Premiere in Singapore! I wouldn't be bothered if the composer isn't Wang Jian Min. He's my idol in composing Chinese pieces! I like his style cos his pieces are interesting to play and nice too! Not just this, the other pieces that they'll be performing appeal to me too! But well, I guess I'm gonna give it a miss cos

1. im not free on fri, sat shd be reserved for practising erhu
2. i shd be spending more time to mug
3. not like Wang Jian Min's gonna appear

LOL. YEAH, I'll be able to hear it in the future since it's alrdy in Singapore! Moreover, Moses also said that it's not as nice as the first two. (haha, im trying to psycho myself that not going is a better choice!) AWWWW. BYE CONCERT.

Anyway, I just watched a tour show on tv. The host visited the rural areas in Hainan. When I saw him chasing after the goats, I feel like being a 'kampong girl'! HAHA! A 'kampong girl' who chases after goats to the fields, feed animals, do farming.... etc. HAHA! It's quite nice actually! Imagine the sense of accomplishment you get when your animals grow healthy and chubby and when your crops are ready for harvest! You can even make friends with the animals! This kind of feeling can never be experienced in city life! ):

Recently, I've found out that my blog has silent readers(ppl who read and nvr tag and they're ppl whom i nvr expect to visit my blog). LOL! Come on, leave a tag to keep my blog/tagboard alive! HAHAHA!

2010-08-14T00:14:00.003+08:00

Sighs. I've been limping (but i try not to make it look obvious, so i doubt anyone has realised it, except for the class girls lol) for the past two days.

Why?!

Cos I 'geh kiang', jogged for a long time on wed and ended up with calve's muscles ache. Now I have to walk and minimize the bending of my legs at the same time, cos it hurts whenever I bend them. Stupid suzie laughed at me when I staggered my way down the stairs. -.-

2010-07-26T22:12:00.002+08:00

I had enough sleep ytd, but somehow, I feel very sleepy today. Perhaps it's due to the cool weather? Haha! Keep stoning unknowingly today.

Sighs. I get more depressed each day as Prelims approaches. I... have no confidence leh. :(

On another random note, I suspect I'm suffering frm some unknown disease lah! Firstly, my hairfall problem is abnormally serious. At the rate, I may grow bald one day. Next, I always wake up with a numb hand or arm. It's numb to the extent that I can feel nth or I can't even hold a thing with that hand. I rmb I dropped my phone one morning when I wanted to turn the alarm off. :o what's wrong with me man... M I dying? :/

And in response to chewfei's tag, haha, sorry to sound suggestive eh! Don't worry, I didn't get attached secretly lah! Haiyo! So busy with sch work, how to have bf! Even if I have, he'll dump me soon cos I'll have no time for him now. Hahaha! I was just busy running errands! No worries! :)

2010-07-25T14:03:00.001+08:00

Hahha funnaye... I'm on my next 'quest' now! Life's so... Interesting! :D

2010-07-24T19:49:00.001+08:00

These two days I feel like a bee, busy flying from flower to flower to gather nectar. Haha! Rushing from place to place makes me feel like I'm filming in some Jacky chan's action movie. So interesting! Then again, perhaps i may die of heart attack if my life goes on like this. Hahaha!! Hope I'll be on time for my next 'quest'! :D

2010-06-28T21:31:00.006+08:00

How does it feel like when a friend of yours has become famous?

I've a friend who has become famous now. She sings really well. Initially, I only saw her on tv in a singing competition. Though she didn't win it, neither did she get into finals, she was one of the best contestants (at least she was the 2nd runner-up!) I think she was just not lucky enough.

Later on, I was shocked when I saw a banner of her on my way home one day. It's a banner promoting a community event and she was invited to sing. My response then was, 'wow, she's everywhere!'

Last week, I was at orchard attending my cousin's wedding. As I walked past Ion, I saw her face on Ion's huge screen! She sang and appeared in a music video! A few days later, I saw the same video again and discovered that she's the Asia representative in the Singapore Youth Olympics Games theme song! OMG! REPRESENTATIVE OF ASIA! Guess what? I just heard her version of the YOG theme song on radio (that's y I felt the urge to express my happiness for her on my blog :P)

We may not be close friends n I doubt she still recognizes me (cos we haven't met for ages), but I'm really happy for her. In fact, I've already expected her to shine in the singing arena cos she has a very nice voice from young! Hope she'll continue to shine; hope she'll be a professional singer, go international and do Simgapore proud! :)))
Ps: I wish I could sing as well as her!

2010-06-27T00:40:00.002+08:00

My sixth sense tells me that I'm gonna flunk bt2.

Nonetheless, I'm happy that I'm beginning to feel smth for cyxmm! I must jiayou on it, as well as other pieces...

I can't wait for blocks to end, cos I can't wait to read. Lol! My next book will be Nicholas Spark's 'The Last Song'. Perhaps after this would be 'A Walk To Remember'. Wheee... Can't wait to read them!

2010-06-04T23:46:00.003+08:00

Mixed feelings.

Worried abt concert, looking forward to concert, feel glad that i've learnt some valuable lessons these few days, enjoyed my batchmates' company, happy to have nice and helpful seniors, gotta believe that miracle will come though im not one who believes in it, worried abt ge, afraid that there wont be enough time to study for blocks, excited abt japan trip etc.....

But now, im just too tired to elaborate on anything. Wish me luck, may God bless us and have a smooth sailing concert! :D

2010-05-30T14:18:00.003+08:00

Teaching is really another form of art. As a student, sometimes we don't undertand some of our teachers intentions. Now that I've also become a teacher, I can understand how my teacher felt when she told us certain things in the past.

Recently, I've just engaged myself in another music lesson: teaching erhu to a grp of three girls. Unlike my first student, their basics were shaky and one of them didn't even have any musical background. However, I enjoy teaching them becos they look sincere in learning. :) In my opinion, basics are the most fundamental to success. So I taught all of them frm the basics.

On the second lesson, I saw improvement in the bowing! I was really happy! At least it sounds less 杀鸡 alrdy! And their techniques r right! Haha! Next, I taught them how to listen n follow the beats. Among the three of them, the one who learnt erhu since p1 is the fastest learner, while the one w/o any prior knowledge is the slowest. However, my instinct tells me that the slowest girl will be the best among them. Although all r able to play correctly, she does the techniques the best. Teaching her would require much more time n patience. When teaching them how to follow beats, she could neither count the counts correctly nor enter on the beat. It took up quite some time trying the correct her. This is one of the challenging part for the teacher as u gotta make sure thenother two wouldn't be bored waiting for their friend, while u try hard to teach the slower learner. I made the others count for her n also point out her mistakes. I hope she wasn't feeling embarrassed when I made her play by herself. :x Eventually, she got the beat and could enter correctly! I was elated that she made it! :D Then I taught them how to read the scores cos they claimed that they're afraid of sight-reading n that this fear is hindering them frm trying grade 4. I taught them in a mathematical way n they were amazed at how music can be so closely related to math! Haha! I gave them several examples in the order of increasing difficulty. Whenever they saw complicated markings, they'd freak out. But after I broke it down note by note, they could understand it. I really hope they will apply it in any other scores n not freak out by te numbers and markings! :) I believe they'll be able to sight read soon. :)

A while ago, I just had lesson with my first student. Not sure if she's complacent (cos she has erhu background, a pretty good one), she doesn't seem sincere in practising. It's been weeks, yet she hasn't memorized 2 pieces, 3 pages long in total. Fyi, they're kuai gong n zong he lian xi. Even if she hasn't memorized, she's not even familiar with the scores. How to teach her the details when she' not even familiar with it? Well, at least she managed to improve her wrong techniques. At the end of the lesson, I pep talked her, telling her the importance of treasuring time esp in sec sch (when u have ample time for cca), n how much the quantity of practice matters now. I hope she'll start to 踏踏实实 to practise.

Today during my lesson with xu lao shi, she taught me how to practise a portion which clearly reflected my weakness. Then I understood something. I'm sure many of ushd have heard this: give a fisherman a fish, he'll be nourished for that day. Give the fisherman the skills to fish, it'll keep him nourished for life. Similarly, she's trying to teach me how to tackle with such challenges, so that I can apply the same thing in the future. Like her, I must also teach my students how to deal with problems themselves, so as to make them grow n learn.

Haha, after telling so much abt my lessons, what I wanna say is, I finally experience what xls felt when I improved n when I disappointed her. She's really a great teacher. W/o her, I wouldn't be who I m today. Thanks so much to her. Really, thanks a lot...

2010-05-29T20:36:00.003+08:00

Whoa... The hectic week is finally coming to an end. Only had about 2-3h of sleep on tue and wed nights with CO everyday till 8.30pm. Yeah man, it's so tiring that im almost dying of fatigue. Good thing GP work is finally settled!

Had bike hike ytd. Sadly, my legs couldnt make it. Don't know why it was like that. Cycling from 11pm to about 7 the next morning wasnt a problem for me at all. Wonder why my legs hurt so much when I cycled last night that i had to give up half way. ): Good thing I managed to catch some sleep on the lorry before facing another day of hectic schedule.

Went back for CO then helped out in stage runner practice. It was the first time I tried Redbull and I realised that it's really effective! Then I had to go for tuition till 5pm. Kudos to me for being able to survive through the day! (:

Guess what im doing now. Im actually tearing. HAHA! Frankly speaking, I've been crying for the past hour or so, over a hk drama. LOL! Cant believe that I could get so sentimental over a show. Sighs... Damn sad lah.... And all thanks to Limyang. He sent a very hilarious msg to xianyue just at the moment when I was crying terribly. He put me into a split emotion; I actually laughed and cried at the same time, like a lunatic. LOL!

Ok, that's all im gonna blog today. Gonna move on to the next drama! WHOOOOOOO~!

2010-05-28T08:01:00.003+08:00

Whooo...! It's holidays n I've finally survive through the 'GP turmoil'! Yay! Fyi, 'GP turmoil' refers to all vocabulary exercises of Times magazine ws, min 40-50 words of wordbank which consists of meaning n self-constructed sentences of the words that we don't kkow the meaning n ALL sections of the time tunnel! Apparently, the entire class has been rushing these GP work since last week, of course, with some form of 'coorperation' incorporated. :P

For me, the work was even tougher to complete due to the hectic CO pracs we have everyday which end very late at night. Unfortunately, this also depicted that I had to compromise my sleep for my hw. On both tue n wed nights, I had very little sleep. By wed, I was sooooooo exhausted that I was literally SEMI-CONSCIOUS!

Evidence 1:

I wasn't paying attention in class at all, but partly also becos I was still rushing the last bit of GP in class.

Evidence 2:

Selective hearing. Ms Fok told us to draw an econs diagram to show her. Yet I stoned becos I didn't hear that we were supposed to draw it for her. Lol.

During dazu, Yingxuan told me to pass a piece of paper n a pouch around in the section, but I only passed the paper w/o even knowing the existence of the pouch though it was placed right before me. =.=

Evidence 3:

Falling asleep during CO. This is actually very dangerous as there were a few times when I nearly dropped my erhu! Nonetheless, I think I've mastered Shunta's skills of sleeping-yet-conscious-abt-surroundings. In other words, I may be sleeping, but I can still hear what ppl play, what the teacher is saying n enter correctly. Lol!! But, still far from Shunta's proness lah!

Evidence 4:

Errenous statement made in a conversation with Xueyan.
Sheila: hey! R u guys having dinner tgt YESTERDAY before bike hike?

Another illogical statement in a conversation with yingxuan. Both of us left early frm CO. She was meeting her seniors for jts. When she met her senior,

Sheila: So u're not going with me?? =.=

Good thing today's a public hol n I managed to catch sufficient sleep. Or else I'll really die of fatigue at this rate cos there's still bike hike today! Hohoho excitinggggggg!!! :)))

2010-05-23T23:36:00.003+08:00

Wheee! Just got back frm the airport! Went to send layting off for her Europe trip! Had dinner tgt with her family too! We were planning to have dinner with our families tgt at the airport on 9 jun, before we set off for japan! Cool right? Haha!

Bleh, I'm beginning to feel jealous. I also wanna go to Europe. :x I've nvr been there before. Szemin has the same sentiments too! Haha! We both felt like flying to another country when we sent layting off lol! Then we got excited abt our japan trip cos we really look forward to flying overseas n going there with our friends!! It's also the first time layting, szemin, chewfei n I r going overseas tgt! Wheeee!!!

Met wenhao, Ian n Cheryl! They went there to send Danette off hehh. Sighs. Maybe I'm gonna miss layting for the next two weeks! Nonetheless, hope she'll have a safe trip n come back with lots of interesting stories to share with us! And hope Danette will recover soon! :) gahhh... I wonder if I'm still in te mood to study in this last week of sch. :x

2010-05-20T21:38:00.004+08:00

Happy to know you! (:

2010-05-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

Shucks. I'm back to the emo state again.

1. I hate to be a replacement of something else. You know, i really hope that im not just a replacement...

2.Sometimes I hope I can be left alone at the right time. Sorry for being anti-social, but I really need those times...

3. I hate to be weak. And now I feel like a weakling. Empty promises with no action. Why have I become someone who only knows how to criticize, yet passive in making a change to the situation? It's just another common challenge that many people face. Why am I so affected by it? Why cant I stop blaming? Why didnt I reorganize my thoughts instead and look for a solution? Im such a crybaby.

4. I hate to sacrifice things at the expense of my inability. Seriously, what's the point of feeling sorry after the sacrifice?

You know, there's so much going through my mind. I begin to wonder if I've changed, perhaps for the worse. ):

You know, sometimes I actually feel lost and I hope some wise soul can be there to guide me through the darkness...

Sighs. I'm sorry for the rant. I really need it.

2010-05-16T23:35:00.002+08:00

Im tired, so im feeling kinda lazy to blog. BUT I still wanna mention certain things that happened this week cos I want those beautiful little events to be recognized! (: (pardon me for another incoherent post that's super summarized!)

1. I enjoyed laughing and crapping with the funny people around me! (e.g. angyingxuan, deborahlim etc.)

2. I enjoyed Scramble-ing with the girls in my class! (hoho, u guys cant beat my high score of 98 points! BLEAH!)

3. I enjoyed the fc's companion, cos they're my fav grp of ppl who nvr fail to make me laugh lol! (all thanks to Minron's ladder theory, the moth that took a free bus ride from tpy to NUS, yijiao's hilarious remarks and how she became minron's accomplice unknowingly, meeting Mr Teo's look-alike at choir concert etc.)

4. Had fun sight-reading manuscript with Sherry. Laughed over silly jokes like how I thought Jun Yan was the composer of erquan cos i forgot his name n saw 'Yan Jun' as the composer.

5. Had a great night today with my family and relatives! My nephews and niece are really adorable! :DDD (My niece is billingual! She said, "阿公的车是 green 色的！" HAHAHA! So cute! At a certain point of time, I lost my attention cos her pronunciation wasnt clear. Then the words '开刀' drew my aunt's and my attention. We immediately asked 什么东西开刀 in a worried tone, as we were scared that she'd learn the wrong things. Then she said, '婆婆讲小孩子不可以吃太多糖，要不然要开刀拿出来！这边开，那边开，全身都要开刀！' LOL!! SO CUTE RIGHT! Apparently my aunt and I burst into laughter after that! haha!)

Ok end of summary. Hope next wk's gonna be a better week!

2010-05-09T23:17:00.002+08:00

Last night I dreamt that I was singing in the public. Amazingly, I was singing a hokkien song using a microphone! LOL! So random. So i went to dreammoods.com to check for the meaning. Here it is:

Singing

To sing in your dream, represents happiness, harmony and joy in some situation or relationship. You are uplifting others with your positive attitude and cheerful disposition. Singing is a way to celebrate, communicate and express your feelings.

Haha... 'Happiness, harmony and joy in some situation'... perhaps not, but 'relationship', yes! (refer to my prev prev post!)

Ok, i just realised that this is a super random post!

Btw, I've a request. I hope that i can eat w/o growing fat cos nowadays i've been eating to make myself feel happier. lol...

PS: sorry for this incoherent post. not gonna matter anyway as long as i understand what it means. (:

2010-05-09T00:33:00.002+08:00

Uncanny coincidences... Hmmm...

2010-05-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

I feel very happy today!

I've a plan for my dearest parents and godparents! Mother's Day and Father's Day are round the corner and my parents' bdays are nearing too! This yr is special cos it's the first time i work and earn money! So I intend to treat all four of them to a good meal! Hohoho!

All my relatives are quite distant, so I don't really feel the family committment. Perhaps because of this, I'm quite envy of my friends who often have family gatherings on weekends. And maybe becos I barely spend time with my relatives, Im actually very happy that the four of them, my 4 dearest family members, and I are going to have dinner tgt! It's also an added joy that it's the first time I'm treating them with my 2nd pay! (not 1st pay cos i wanted to save more for a better meal and also to celebrate those occasions :P)

I know I've said this many times, but I'm still gonna say it again.
WHEEEEEEEE IM VERY HAPPY!!! :D

2010-04-27T22:23:00.002+08:00

Symptoms of stress:

Case 1- 22.04.10

I fell asleep while waiting for my com to load. My mother attempted to wake me up before she turned in.

Mother: Hey! Wake up! I'm going to sleep already!
Me: Are the performers here alrdy?!
Mother: Huh? What are you talking about? It's time to wake up! Or you won't have the time to do your work!
Me: Are the performers here alrdy!??!?!!? Where are they!??! Where!?! Where are they?!?!
Mother: *gave up waking me up*

Case 2- 27.04.10

Took a short nap after doing a bit of GP. Again, my mother tried to wake me up for dinner.

Mother: Hey! Wake up! It's time for dinner!
Me: *ignores and continues sleeping*
Mother: Hey! Wake up!! Wake up!!!!! Wake up!!!!!!!! *getting fed up alrdy*
Me: *finally responded* .... Where am i?
Mother: At home! Omg! Are you ok?! How can you not know where you are?!

Oh dear. There's something very wrong with me. I've been sprouting nonsense in my sleep. This is horrible...

2010-04-27T06:03:00.003+08:00

Time flies. Everything is passing so unbelievably quickly that I feel like I'm dreaming!

I must say that I'm beginning to feel stressed cos my work has been piling up since the fo1 season came. But I must hang in there as I know that God has been giving me hope. I must jiayou! :)

2010-04-25T18:52:00.003+08:00

Wheeee!! I'm happy today cos I get to see dyt on tv tonight! Hehhhh! He' so charming that
see him = heart melt

lol! How I wish I'm one of the actresses, so that I can get a seat there n gaze at him frm afar. (shucks I'm 'sick' again) Hope he'll clinch awards, then I'll b able to see him more on tv! Hahaha! Oooh! Star awards is showing now! Tata!!

2010-04-08T06:02:00.003+08:00

Sighs. Do I hold high expectations or r we really not good? We have a lot of potential, but that doesn't mean that we can take success for granted. Perhaps success is bound to come to us (based on past experiences), are we really gonna be satisfied with what we alrdy have and not strive for even higher levels of success?

Ultimately, everything boils down to what we really want, not what an individual wants. If we're aiming for greater goals, I'm confident that the amount of effort that we've put in is not even insufficient, but minimal. Actually, this problem was alrdy my concern since months ago. Now that I'm blogging abt it is becos we're gonna cut down on our 'task' to fulfil the 'requirement'. Frankly speaking, I'm disappointed. Why is this necessary for a group of talented people? Because we haven't been putting in enough effort.

If this trend continues, what will become of us in the future? Still able to achieve success with a close shave? Or success will leave us for another group of people who appreciate it?

2010-04-05T21:55:00.001+08:00

It's kinda sad that things cant go in ur way all the time. Sighs. Oh well, maybe it's God will? Maybe this arrangement is better? hmmm...

2010-03-24T09:11:00.004+08:00

Went for Ben & Jerry's free cone with Suzie and Guo Shu! Nice 'glutting'/distressing session after draining papers. When we first saw the queue, we wanted to give up queuing cos we thought it might take an hour. So we bought a Mix & Match combo instead. Then they felt unsatisfied for not getting the free cone. So we ate our combo while queuing. LOL! 3 scoops for the combo and another 3 scoops from the free cone. We managed to try most of their flavours! :D Was really happy cos Ben & Jerry's is my favourite brand of icecream! :D

Hint: Should there be a day when you have to cheer me up, you can treat me to Ben & Jerry's icecream!

Screwed math though. ): I suddenly thought of the movie clip that our dear sports i/cs screened during their faccomm intro. 'KEEP GOING KEEP GOING! DONT GIVE UP!!' haha, yeap, i may have screwed math (and maybe there goes fo1), but i must continue to work hard for the remaining papers. Gonna let go of that screwed up paper and do my best for the rest. Not doing this for the sake of fo1 but myself.

2010-03-22T19:51:00.004+08:00

I don't know why I feel angry all of a sudden. Stress? Maybe. Have been facing books and notes for the whole of last week that im so sick of studying. But I know I can't give up and i've been trying my best. Perhaps i'm alrdy psychologically exhausted that's why Im beginning to feel frustrated about mugging. ): It will suck even more if my efforts are gonna get paid off. I must say that I've been trying hard for this block tests. Then again, what if my hard work is not good enough? Of course I still have BT2 and prelims. But I don't wish to miss FO1. ): Though this blocks has no weightage at all, I don't wanna do badly cos there's not much time to A's. Must start making progress from now. Im not smart, so I need to work extra harder. Sighs, if I've accumulated good karma in my previous life, please let me redeem it by letting me pass all my subs in this block tests. Passing all subs is enough. Save some for my BT2, prelims and most imptly, A LVLS! lol! Really gonna pray hard and work hard...

Anyway, tmr's Ben and Jerry's free cone day! My fav icecream! (: Im sure im gonna get a free cone tmr as long as I can find ppl to go with me! Ok, time to cheer up, embrace myself for the two papers tmr and I can enjoy my icecream! (:

Before I go off,

HAPPY BDAY CHEWFEI! :D

2010-03-21T20:26:00.001+08:00

Im still left with a little bit more to complete econs. BUT IM SUPER DISTRACTED BY THE CHARITY SHOW NOW!!!!! COS I CANT WAIT TO SEE DYT!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOO~!!!

I think i'll be very happy after seeing him. HAHAHA! even b4 seeing him, im alrdy so excited! wheeeeee... havent seen him on tv for quite some time! good good... good encouragement for blocks next week. HAHAHA!

2010-03-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

I'm sure xls's gonna be mad with me tmr, cos i nvr prac this whole week though it's hols. Haa... nvm, I'll make up for it after blocks!

As I was mugging, I cant help thinking abt going out and have fun with friends! I feel very deprived cos I haven't 'played' with my friends for a loooooong time. The last movie i watched was during promos before physics paper. =.= How long was that luh! But, I played pool several times this yr alrdy... STILL, I feel deprived of entertainment!

Argh, i must persevere a little more, cos blocks' gonna be over soon! This time next week, I'll be having fun with HCCO and have 'taitai day' on sunday! WHEEEEEEEEE!!!! Can't wait for my last paper to end then i can embark on Project L&C.... (what's that? SECRET! (:)

YEAH BABY~ WORK TOWARDS THE WONDERFUL WEEKEND! :D

2010-03-19T08:34:00.002+08:00

AHHH SHIT. THERE'S A SERIOUS NEED FOR ME TO SLIM DOWN! I'm so heavy that my chair cracked when i sat on it just now!! Then again, that chair is alrdy very old... Been around since i was in k2 or p1(*calculates*... 11-12 yrs alrdy!)... HAHA SO MAYBE IT WASNT ME! Aiyah, but the former argument is still stronger (lol GP) cos my IRREGULAR BMI has proven that im indeed heavy. ):

Ok, Conquer The Fats Programme (CTF) shall begin after blocks! Muahahaha...

2010-03-18T22:07:00.004+08:00

Heck the pimples and dark rings (on a random note, i actually got a shock when i saw myself in the mirror, cos my dark rings are unbelievably horrible that i look like a ghost.). I'm gonna sleep late/ not sleep (if i can) today.

Today, I find myself falling in love with someone's voice. :O! Didn't really listen to his songs in the past cos I didn't particularly find him attractive (when i say attractive, i dont mean the looks only, but the overall impression). In fact, I thought he looked like a monkey. :P Ok, sorry for being mean. After watching him on my fav show, I think he has a very nice voice and he sings very well! So I looked for more of his videos and..... I gradually fell in love with his voice! (:
He is Lin You Jia! (:

Watch this and you'll be convinced!

OKAY, back to mugging. I CAN DO IT WOOOOOTS~!

2010-03-17T20:20:00.002+08:00

Had a terrible nightmare ytd, when i had my aftnn nap. It was so horrible that my heart was thumping like a vibrator and i was actually in tears when i woke up! :O! First time in my life encountering this. Not becos it was a scary dream, but it was a very depressing dream... Dont wanna talk about it cos it's not real anyway! (:

Mugging with classmates in school is fun! Especially when you have entertaining (but noisy) classmates around! HAHA! Ok lah, i must say i appreciated the noise cos it really cheered us up from our despair (of being unable to solve the questions).

My pimples are popping out... ): I think it's becos I've been staying up late these few days! I'd better start sleeping early, if not Lady Gaga will sing:

Can't read her can't read her
No you can't read her PIMPLE FACE
(she's gotta turn in early)

HAHA! NICE. Sorry for the lame-ness. Blame Johnathan for the bad influence. HAHAHA!

2010-03-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

我真的受伤了

灯光也暗了

音乐低声了

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了

人是无聊了

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了

你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了

是你变了

灯光熄灭了

音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了

人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

nice song (:

2010-03-14T23:00:00.003+08:00

Today i REALISED something.

Everyone needs someone to confide in, even if he's an extreme introvert. Not that i see this in someone, just suddenly discover this today. hahaha...

pardon me for my randomness.

Today, I've also REALISED that im REALLY STUBBORN. Some things may seem impossible but i'll still insist on doing it if i really wanna do it. lol, call me stupid if u want to.

okay, this is a random post, a result of me thinking a lot today. :P

2010-03-13T00:19:00.003+08:00

Damn! I'm such a fatso! I just ate a huge bowl of noodles for SUPPER though i had a HUGE bowl of rice for dinner. It's not a 'typical girl' thing to feel fat. I really am cos of the fact that i've an irregular BMI. And when I said HUGE BOWL, i really meant HUGE BOWL, that normal girls like Layting cant finish even if she's hungry.

Believe it or not.

2010-03-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

Mr Teo says he'll ban anyone who fails any sub in block test. And I have a strong feeling that I'm going to fail my blocks. Attempted the practices and I realised that I keep getting stuck. How to pass like that? Worse still, I'm so not in the mood of studying. I can sit at my table with all my study materials, but I refuse to touch them. i.e. walk around the house to look for other things to do except mugging. RAAHHHHHHHHHH SAVE ME!

Today's the first time Chewfei crashed my lecture. It was math lecture on complex nos. I was damn SMART cos I didn't bring my complex nos notes and geometrical set despite setting it as a reminder in my phone for TWO DAYS. =.= So I had to survive the lecture by sharing notes with chewfei and drawing the diagrams free hand.

There's a point of time, chewfei was sceptical abt my ability to draw a decent circle. I wanted to prove her wrong, so I rejected her offer (to lend me her geometry set) and drew the circle free handed. The circle turned out to be super out-of-shape, like a deformed pao. LOL! We both burst into laughter after I finished my circle. I was so agitated that I leaned backwards as I laughed and my head hit the table of the person sitting behind me. DAMN EMBARRASSING. Fortunately I know the person personally or it'll be even more embarrassing. HAHA!

Wheee.. Enjoyed my journey home cos going home in broad daylight with chewfei reminds me of the days we return home tgt in sec 4! 无话不说.(:

2010-03-09T10:01:00.004+08:00

How time flies. Another batch of junior going for Graces Camp. Reminds me of those days when I was still a sec 4. Life was busy cos of all the leadership committments, but everything was fruitful and worthwhile. Thinking of my sec 4 life reminds me of my beloved 409... 409 was really fun cos we always do crazy stuff in class! Not forgetting NYCO, the sweet juniors and our very nice conductor, MRS EE!

But, we still gotta move on don't we? We may miss the past, but who knows the future may be better? (:

Havent seen him in ages, so I shall....

(yes yijiao, i like this prc. =.=)

HAHA! ok here comes my insanity again!

anyway, ALL THE BEST FOR BLOCKS EVERYBODY! :D

i miss you.

2010-03-02T23:04:00.004+08:00

ARGH. IM SO SORRY BUT I JUST HAVE TO DO THIS. I'M FEELING DAMN ANGRY NOW COS OF ALL THE MISHAPS THAT HAPPENED TO ME TODAY. PLEASE LET ME RANT COS I NEED TO LET IT OUT OR I'LL REALLY EXPLODE.

ACTUALLY I'VE SOMEWHAT GOTTEN OVER THE ISP TECHNICAL SCREW-UP, BUT ANOTHER BLOW STIRRED UP MY ANGER ONCE AGAIN. SERIOUSLY, I HATE TO BLOG ABOUT HOW I DISLIKE SOMETHING OR SOMEONE COS I DONT LIKE THE IDEA OF 'BROADCASTING' HOW PATHETIC I AM AND I DONT WANT TO GAIN SYMPATHY LIKE THAT. SO IM NOT GONNA REVEAL ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED, BUT I JUST WANNA SAY, I REALLY DISLIKE THE WAY SOME OF THE THINGS ARE DONE.

THIS SUCKS TTM. COS FOR ALMOST ALL SUCH THINGS THAT HAPPEN, I CAN ONLY DISLIKE WHAT HAS BEEN DONE AND CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. EITHER BECAUSE I DONT HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE THINGS, OR I EXCLUDED MYSELF IN THE EARLIER STAGE, SO I DON'T REALLY HAVE A SAY IN IT. CONCLUSION? IT'S ALL MY FAULT THAT I LAND MYSELF IN SUCH SITUATIONS.

ps: sorry if i've scared you.

2010-02-18T21:27:00.003+08:00

Wheeeee! Long time no blog! Cos life has been really busy, or rather, EVENTFUL! haha! Nice events, but im lazy to blog all the details, so im just gonna mention whatever i feel like noting, so pardon me for my lousy language and the incoherence in my post! XD

Orientation period was FABULOUS! It's my favourite period of time so far! Really had great fun interacting with my fun and enthusiastic junior class (whoooo~!), had fun doing preparation with fac comm and had even greater fun during campfire! WHOOOOOOO!

Tying hundreds of water bombs till night was tiring, but fun cos of funny (crappy) fac comm ppl! '你买我 kope' yo.... and all my weird theories like how there shd be variations in our water bombs. LOL! Jumping on the high jump mattress was crazy cos all of us just dived in and bounced non-stop after we completed our job! The starry sky even added on to the lovely night! (:

Really happy to have nice juniors this year! Was touched when the 7H girls grabbed to me teach them fac dance cos they couldnt see pat and wangchi! ARTEMIS SPIRIT FTW! :D My junior class is interesting too! Mostly enthu abt fac stuff! :DDD Campfire was GREAT cos most of us danced our bestest during the fac dance showcase and didnt make any mistake! KUDOS TO US! :D

Angel-mortal is fun too! Esp when you find out the INTERESTING combinations.... HAHAHA!!! Sadly, i've an insincere mortal who writes 1-3 sentences letters to me, when i even bother to reply a paragraph. hmmph. To save his foolscap, i shall reply on the same sheet the next time!

12 FEB!! LIMLAYTING'S BDAY!!! No time to prepare nice gifts for her, so I dedicated my entire day to her! Really sorry for not planning it well! Wanted to do many things with u actually, but time was a prob u see... Nvm, will try to compensate you! :P Hope you didnt feel bored that day! :x But im sure you had a very memorable bday. HAHAHA!!! PS: I'VE LOTS TO TELL YOU!!!!!!!!

CNY!! Went back to msia to bai nian (paternal relatives). Learnt a new poker card game called niu2 (cow in chinese). Haha... Can consult me abt it if u're interested. ^^ Im happy that my grandmother looks more radient now! (: It was nice cos I managed to watch free fireworks exploding and spreading out like a huge umbrella right above my head! Also managed to watch fire crackers! COOL RIGHT?! Oh.. Another discovery.. but a gross one. I saw a lizard tail in the toilet and saw the lizard without tail when i went out of the toilet. LOL!

TODAY! Hung out with a few juniors at the class bench today! Got really high after spotting funny expressions of people in the war game photo. HAHAHA! Esp Zhihao lah! Sit so in front, so visible, yet he wasnt looking at the cam! He bent down, faced a side and fiddled with his fingers, as if he was emo-ing. LOL! James also, tying the blue ribbon across his face and covering his eye(s) like a pirate. Then I found out Pamela's eyecandy. WHOOOOOOOOO! INTERESTING! HAHAHHA! I got damn high that I kept postponing my going-home-time. LOLS! Met hyc on my way to layting's hse just now! Then met Zhiqi on my way home lols!

Okay end of the narration of my recent life! (:

Agenda for tmr: Perform for Mr Ma Bao Tan and play for Ye Cong! :O *gasps*

2010-01-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

MUST blog about this.

JOKE OF THE DAY

How to conduct an experiment on sound?

Procedures:

1. Clamp a bat on the retort stand.
2. Squeeze the bat.

...

LOL!!! Someone added on, "Pre-experiment preparation: Catch a bat." HAHAHAHAHA!!!

Man.. I've been laughing abt this the entire day! ERWINAAAA! I STILL HAVENT GOTTEN OVER THIS!!!

2010-01-18T22:05:00.002+08:00

It's me. I'm the problem. Things were unsuccessful not because of unluckiness. Neither is it because of other people or other factors. It's me, I realised. Same conditions, same variables, but different people. Why did I meet with so many problems? Apparently the reason is me...

LOUSY.INFERIOR.REMORSEFUL.GUILTY

The past was such an ugly painting which cant be undone anymore. I really wish I can erase it and redraw a better picture. Sighs. Work hard, work harder. I mustnt 'die' and I don't wanna 'die'. Give me the strength and let me pull through all the obstacles ahead!

2010-01-16T10:24:00.003+08:00

Was listening to Long De Chuan Qi again... All of a sudden, I feel like watching a CO concert. Lol! Then I recalled that I heard about this concert on the radio:

SCO Opening Gala and Y.E.S. 93.3 FM 20th Anniversary
Rhapsodies of Spring 2010 春花齐放 2010

SYNOPSIS
葉聰 - 指挥
董帝均 - 小提琴
933醉心频道全体DJ - 戏剧表演/演唱/主持

春节序曲 - 李焕之作曲
933 DJ 短剧 – 烦恼的20岁 - 周崇庆编剧、陈家荣作曲
新春乐 - 茅沅作曲
春 - 维瓦尔蒂
引子与回旋随想曲 - 圣桑
二十年金曲龙虎榜 - 潘耀田改编
大地回春 - 沈文友改编

Y.E.S.93.3庆20，双倍娱乐，双倍Fun! 别出心裁的春节音乐会，由93.3FM全体DJ与新加坡华乐团联合呈献，首次将戏剧融入华乐演出，由周崇庆编导的短剧将一展933DJ的演剧才华。音乐会也请到本地著名青年小提琴家董帝均携瓜达尼尼名琴演奏威瓦尔蒂《四季》中的《春》和圣桑的《引子与回旋随想曲》，让观众领略西洋名曲移植成华乐曲后将有怎样精采的演绎。压轴节目《二十年金曲龙虎榜》由933醉心龙虎榜年度金曲串联而成，其中包括《特别的爱给特别的你》《吻别》《孤星泪》等，由华乐演来，另有风味。

Tsung Yeh - Conductor
Tang Tee Khoon - Violinist
Y.E.S 933 DJ - Performers/Vocalists/Hosts

Spring Festival Overture - Li Huan Zhi
933 DJ Drama - Troubles of 20-year-old - Chew Chong Keng, Tan Kah Yong
A Joyous New Year - Mao Yuan
La Primavera - Antonio Vivaldi
Introduction and Rondo Capriccioso - Saint Saens
Best Hits of 20 Years - Phoon Yew Tien
The Return of Spring - Sim Boon Yew

Experience again the Mandarin pop classics as popular Y.E.S 9.33 DJs Cai Wei Ping, Chew Chong Keng and Siau Jia Hui display their multiple talents with a skit and a medley of the hottest chart topping hits from the 80s and 90s. To add to the joyous spirit, violinist Tang Tee Khoon will be using a rare and precious Guadagnini violin to perform a series of pieces selected from both Western and Eastern flavours to celebrate the coming of Spring, making it a night of twice the entertainment and double the fun! We promise you’ll leave the concert hall with a festive mood and humming a familiar tune.

Sounds interesting eh? Here're the details:

DATE
29-30 Jan 2010

Fri-Sat, 8PM

DURATION
Approx 2 Hrs

Interval
Approx 15 Mins

VENUE(S)
SCO Concert Hall

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$95, S$75, S$55, S$35, S$25

Please add to above price $3 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets above $20 and $1 Booking Fee per ticket for tickets $20 and below. Charges include GST where applicable.

Fortunately there's concession. I'm a passion card member, so I can go for the $22 ticket. On top of that, early bird can buy it at $20 for the cheapest rate. BUT today's the last day of the early bird offer! OH NO. Should I watch? I havent even asked anyone to watch with me!!! Unlike the usual CO concerts, this concert is slightly more expensive. I wonder who will be interested and is willing to pay $22 for a concert. GAHHH.

Whoa... I realised that the chinese words are very cramped when it's posted on my blog. So for more information, click the link below for a clearer view!

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2010-01-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

It's just the first week of school and we're all pretty jaded.

As quoted from Deborah, "Whoa, it's just the first week of school and we're already returning home late!" And my reply was, "Haha, this is just the appetizer Deborah!"

Indeed. This week we're all busy with open house and perhaps fac day preparation. In the future to come, Dramafeste, Fac CIP and Fac Outing will start to stream in, along with block test 1. At the same time, concert prep for GECO and HCCO will also be pending. GAHH. Cant imagine how im gonna survive through this crazy period. But i guess I can do it, as long as God and my friends are there to give me the strength! (:

Anyway, today's wanhua's driving test and....

CONGRATS TO HER FOR PASSING!!! :D

To Shunta and Wanhua: You guys better drive me around one day uh! Don't let ur license go to waste! LOL!

2010-01-09T00:11:00.003+08:00

CONCERT

After GE prac today, I realised that Im looking forward to concert this year. Maybe becos I havent been actively playing during dazus last year, I miss playing big/nice pieces in dazu (the feeling is SHUANG).

Now that both HCCO and GECO are having concerts this year, we'll get to play a variety of pieces (not Shu Qing again and again like SYF period nor NAC pieces again and again for GECO =.=). Yes, I love new and nice and challenging pieces! Just like 龙的传奇！It's rare for me to like a piece the first time i hear it. Long De Chuan Qi is one of them, so I guess it's one of my favourite dazu pieces. (:

I think Long De Chuan Qi is very fun! I was telling Sherry (my desk partner in GE) that it sounds like a horror movie music. The 'ghost-chase-after-people' (fast parts in short) are challenging, but FUN! HAHA!

Wonder how it sounds like? Here it is! Only managed to find the MCO version. Scrutinize the video and perhaps you'll see Chengying and Gerald. HAHA!

WHEEEEEEEEE CONCERTS!!!!!!!

2010-01-07T22:41:00.004+08:00

050110: HAPPY BDAY MRS EE!

060110: HAPPY BDAY SZEMIN!

070110: HAPPY BDAY ONG LI YING!

060110 is another special day, cos it's my best friend's bday! :D I think i always enjoy myself on this very day! Maybe cos it's either the start of the term or it's still holiday, so we can celebrate w/o much burdens!

In sec 1, Layting and I bought a cake and delivered it to her place personally (that's cos we wanted to surprise her by getting the cake shop worker to deliver it to her door, but we ordered too late lol.) My mother drove us there. She asked us Szemin's unit no. cos she wanted to buy 4D (it happened to be on a wednesday I think!). Miraculously, my mother really struck lottery and treated the three of us to Sakae Sushi. *inserts my fav emoticon*

Cant rmb what we did in Sec 2, 3 and 4 (so sorry, i must have been a bad friend lol!), we probably didn't really celebrate, but just bought her smth. LAST YR! Layting, Chewfei and I baked Szemin muffins! We bluffed Szemin that we're going to Layting's house to mug math! We were supposed to reach her place before she got out of her house, but we met her on the way! LOL!!!!! So we celebrated her bday at her void deck. Chewfei and I also presented the slogan tees that we bought for the 4 of us. Most imptly, I gave all of them a personalized calendar each! (really proud of it, cos I spent nights doing it hoho...)

THIS YEAR! Webcammed Szemin a drawing that says 'HAPPY BDAY SZEMIN'! The four of us also conferenced on the phone to sing her a bday song! HAHA! Ate at Mushroom Pot Steamboat Restaurant and shopped at Orchard Road! Another tai tai day! WHEEEEEEEEE! I love tai tai days cos being with my besties makes me happy! (: Hope Szemin enjoyed herself! In my opinion, bday is a special day, so it's impt that the bday girl is exceptionally happy on that day! HEE! Well, to make my always-so-wordy-blog less wordy, I shall post some photos of this special day! (:

BDAY GIRL!

On the long long escalator (i was the tallest then!)

in the lift (look up and u'll feel like u're on a roller coaster ride!)

at rooftop garden of orchard central

HAPPY LAYTING!

NEXT TAI TAI OUTING IS SCHEDULED ON 12 FEB. :D

Before i leave,

BYE CHEEHANG (who flew back to US this morning) and

CHRIS SEAH (who's flying to Canada tmr morning)!

HAVE A SMOOTH TRIP! :D

2010-01-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

'I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you'

-Addicted by Simple Plan

ADDICTION KILLS. I've been so addicted to my com that I've been wasting my time and neglecting my hw! :O FB, msn, blog hop again and again and again...

So, I've thought of a way to curb my addiction!

New Year resolution #2: 每天"吃饭"！

"吃饭"? You must be wondering how is it a new year resolution right? This is the origin of "吃饭"...

In one of the co pracs in pri sch, I overheard liu lao shi say smth like, “练琴就像吃饭; 我们天天都吃饭，练琴也要一样，不可以今天吃饭，明天就不用吃。” To curb my addiction, I'm gonna replace practising with usage of com! That's gonna be real tough, but oh well, no harm giving it a try!

Library's gonna be my second home this year. Another way to curb my addiction. Lol! Nette! You shall be my study buddy! Let's aim to meet each other almost everyday this yr! hardcore o.o

ps: anyone is welcomed to join us for mugging! wooots!

2010-01-03T00:21:00.003+08:00

die. i feel that i've just finished warming up after practising for 2 hours. =.= smtimes i really wish that i dont have to worry abt school work and just prac my days away... locking myself up in a room, practising w/o any burdens for long hours is SHIOK. sadly, i've been playing too much since i entered jc. wasted too much time last yr, so my progress was slower than a snail. UH HUH! 1 new year resolution: MAKE GOOD USE OF MY TIME! :D

anyway, i just have to blog abt my dream, cos i dreamt of dyt! HAHA! I dreamt that it was the first day of school and the bus stop was packed with students. smth happened to the bus, so there was no bus coming at all. soon, we were running late for school. just then, dyt appeared in a huge car and he asked all of us to hop in! WOOOOTS! HERO OF THE DAY! :D met yanqi during ge concert meeting just now... when i see her, i think of.......... him!!!! zomg. i need to stop daydreaming! *glares at my new year resolution*

2010-01-01T13:20:00.004+08:00

FIRST POST OF 2010!

Long time no blog... Oh well, shall start off with Christmas!

CHRISTMAS!

Spent christmas in m'sia! Cos my cousin got married on the 26th. Had BUDDHA JUMP OVER THE WALL in the wedding dinner! WOOOOTS! (HAHAH inside joke for fac comm) Sorry if I didn't reply to ur x'mas msgs!

Bought 2 boxes of Hello Panda to occupy myself during the long journeys. I realised that the fillings of Hello Panda are becoming NEGLIGIBLE! Furthermore, its price keeps increasing! Total scam. Low budget also cannot cheat customers' feelings right!

Worse still, when we dropped by at the Jurong Food Centre for lunch, we had to pay 10cents for the entry to toilet. There wasnt any toilet paper in the toilet, so I asked the toilet guard for toilet paper. Guess what? He told me, "10 cents for A PIECE of toilet paper." WHAT?!?! Why so stingy!? People sell 3 packets of tissue paper for $1 and yet he's selling A PIECE of toilet paper for 10 cents and shopping centres don't even charge entry fees or toilet paper fees?! What has singapore turned into luh?! Little things also have to be charged!

GECO CHALET!

Sherry, Wawa, Gao Tian, Veronica, Dominic, Yishan, Sebastian and I met earlier to buy stuff for the BBQ. Luckily Julian came to join us later or we would have a hard time carrying so many stuff over. Lucky me got the chance to sit in Julian's sports car cos I had to check in first. HAHA! It was my FIRST time in my life sitting in a sports car! Julian, be honoured! haha!

It's very coincidental cos SYCO had their chalet just 1 block away from ours! So we celebrated Derek and Jingwen's bdays tgt (same day). The starting of the fire was a bit screwed, cos our 'structures' were not well-built. Thanks to Xiao Han who managed to rescue the 'fire'. HAHA! Played Twister with Wawa and Sherry. Sherry's really good (but cunning) at Twister. That's why she always wins. HAHA!

Then I went to play the $2 pool with Layting, Szemin, Tongzhen, Cheehang and Sebastian. At first, I inserted my coins into the machine but the balls didnt come out. So I went to ask the vendor. She asked us to insert another $2, if it still doesnt work, she would give me 2 free games after that. Unfortunately, the balls came out when we inserted the coins the second time. She said it's impossible that the balls do not come out if we have inserted our coins. I was damn SUAY lah. Gave away 2 bucks for nth. But thanks to Cheehang for the idea-- we blocked the holes and collected the balls after they 'went into' the holes, so that we could play unlimited rounds of pool. LOL!

When we went back, zls and xls came with their dog! :D Their dog is very tame lah. The dog-lovers tried to 'summon' the dog but it didnt respond to them. It only listens to xls and zls. Haha! Then Qinkai said smth hilarious:

Yishan: Eh Qinkai, is Er Bao (the dog's name) a male or a female?
Qinkai: Don't know leh, I've nvr checked before.

LOOOOOOOOOL!

Next was NIGHT CYCLING! Also my first time in my life! Layting too! Cos it's really rare that our parents allow us to stay over! Rmb a few days ago, my msn pm was 'i wanna walk down the streets in town at night'? Amazingly, we cycled to Orchard Road! I love the night view of town. So glad that we managed to catch the captivating view. The Spore Flyer was spectacular at night. Managed to camwhore at certain stop-points. Cant wait to see the photos! Wheee! It's really cool to cycle in the wee hours cos the streets are completely empty and silent. It's like.. THE WHOLE WORLD IS YOURS! hoho... Unfortunately, the Orchard lights were switched off by the time we were there. This experience also let us have a glimpse of the night life-- not those who club at night, but the roadworkers. Ever wonder how the white strips on the roads are painted? They have to meticulously mark them with strings and spray the white paint using a machine. Even cleaner have to clean the roads for us when we're in the middle of our sleep! So be thankful for their contributions k!

By the time we returned to ECP, I was alrdy starving. Hungry > tired. lol! After breakfast, Gao Tian, Dominic and I were too tired to queue for the chalet's toilet, so we went to bathe at the public toilet. Totally knocked out after bathing. Lol! Sherry, Shunta and Wanhua also lah! Wanted to meet me for lunch huh... but they fell asleep at Shunta's house when they were supposed to bathe.. AHEM... HAHAHA! nvm lah, since i fell asleep while waiting too! :P

Then met the A I/Cs for dinner to discuss Fac Day stuff. Had fun during the discussion cos our ideas were all very warped. I like the Cai Shen Ye idea the most. HAHA!

New Year's Eve!

Spent my new year's eve with...... BELOVED FAC COMM! They're a really funny group of people lah! Being with them will make you laugh your head off! HAHA! Had pepperlunch at Kopitiam and had icecream at the balcony. Then we played Murderer. Unfortunately, 2 cards fell into the slits of the ground. Really very sorry Hui Ming (for losing her Jay Chou poker cards!)!!! Anyway, Yingda and I left after that. Chatted and camwhored on the train. Yingda kept saying time passes very fast, so I told her that time flies when she's with me. HAHAHA! Ok, I was very ego last night.

Went home and caught a bit of the channel 8 countdown show. Then I heard booms of the fireworks. Tried to figure the direction and WOOOOTS, I SAW FIREWORKS!

2009 was unpleasant for me. Hopefully this year will be much better! (: Happy New Year everybody! Hope this year will be a much better year! :D

Meeting my taitais afterwards. WOOOOOOOOOTS!

Shall end off my very first post with some nice songs! If you're looking for piano songs, try Pam Wedgewood's songs! I like his compositions! :D

Clouds by Pam Wedgewood (I'd prefer it slightly slower though!)

Nice :D

A fast song of Pam Wedgewood

Another fast song

2009-12-21T22:03:00.002+08:00

First teaching experience. (:

Haha, actually it's not that bad lah. At least it's a pleasant start! The attendance was quite bad as many of them have gone overseas for hols. Those who turned up are the more obedient ones. haha! Must thank Jasmine (xls's student) for being our 'mentor'. Thanks for driving us there and guiding us too!

We splitted into groups after that. So I was teaching 2 boys, Jerome and Yu Xuan. They're really smart! At least they know how to read the scores. Cos I know back in my pri sch, ppl learn by dots or fingerings that xls says. Teaching them is like returning to those good old days when we had xiaozu in pri sch... As we're all still small, xls had to teach a few notes by a few notes and we always play w/o bothering abt the intonation. Even when the teacher is talking, we'll still play our erhus like nobody's business. When it's break, everyone will just chiong out of the classroom to play and eat; nobody bothers to stay back and prac in class. Haha! Yes, this is primary sch's xiaozu.

Anyway, back to the two little boys, they're pretty fast learners. Good thing they do not have any prob with syncopated notes (cos it's a prominent problem amongst beginners and it's also a tough problem to solve). They're just unfamiliar with 二把位, esp the 内弦 notes. Jerome is damn funny cos he'll get pissed with himself when he's unable to get it. They both look very sian when I teach. So I'll give them short breaks and tell them jokes. Haha! Hmmm.. I shall go n replenish my jokes for wed's xiaozu... hohoho!

2009-12-20T22:38:00.013+08:00

'You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up: To more than I can be.'

Meaningful song eh? Haha, I also dont know why, this song played in my head since the start of the day.

Anyway, I had insomnia last night (just like the past few days, also dont know why). My aunt came over to stayover, so I slept on the mattress on the floor. As I left my eyes wide open (due to the insomnia), I realised that i was looking at my room from another angle. All of a sudden, I recalled that that wasnt used to be my room-- it used to be my grandmother's room.

A surge of memories flowed through my mind:

There used to be 2 beds in the room (one for our maid and one for grandma), grandma's wooden wardrobe, her old electric fan and drawers. I can vividly rmb how I always hid in the small gap between the wardrobe and drawers whenever we played hide-and-seek in the house. Haha! Otherwise, I'd hide under the beds. I even found the room a little eerie cos my cordless phone would have crossline problems very often when I talk on the phone in that room.

After she passed on, all her belongings were removed and the room was changed completely: my bed, my wardrobe, poster, new electric fan and radio. Sighs. I think Im missing grandma. ):

Serious insomnia I've got. Random things just kept running through my mind. After all the reminiscence, I suddenly felt that I've a very strong mother. I've never seen my mother cry before, except for 2 occasions:

1. during grandma's funeral
2. once when i was being mischievious

Whenever I have fears (e.g. seeing a ghost, creepy crawlies, other difficulties), she always puts on her brave front and tells me that those barriers are insignificant and that I must have the courage to conquer them. I always tell her that she's a lousy listener cos she doesnt know how to console people; she blames me for acting like a coward instead and will start preeching (you know, ppl in distress always want other ppl to say good things to them and make them feel better.. haha).

I rmb there's once, my father wasnt at home. We both spotted a flying cockroach at home. We were both scared of it. (she was even on the verge of screaming alrdy lah!) But for my sake, she picked up her courage and attacked the roach! Perhaps it was her love for me that overcame her fears. Nevertheless, I really take my hat off her for being such a strong woman.

I must be strong too, just like Ju Xiang and Yue Niang (characters of Little Nyonya haha!) and of course, my mother.

--We need strength to conquer difficulties! Never say die!

Btw, I've finished my Little Nyonya drama series! Wheeee! It's one of the best local serials in my opinion! Tmr is the first day we're teaching... May God bless us, hope that everything goes smoothly! (:

2009-12-18T23:43:00.004+08:00

I've nvr worked before. In other words, all my money = my parents' money.

I've always wanted to have a holiday job so that I can boost my experience, as well as earn some money myself. Unfortunately, I'm always busy during hols and this deprives me of my chance to work.

'Perhaps I can finally start working after A'lvls next year!' that's what I thought a few days ago. Surprisingly, xls asked szemin and I if we wanna try teaching catholic pri sch on her behalf (cos she'll be away next week). If I'm not wrong, we may be given a small portion of salary! At first when she told us that she wanted us to gain experience in this field, I wasn't expecting any return. But since we'll be earning some money, I'm really happy (not cos im money-minded but)cos I can finally earn money MYSELF! the money is genuinely MINE! (:

Hope that it's not false hope lah! So that I can buy my parents smth using my FIRST salary of my life! :D Well, even if I'm not gonna earn anything, I'll still be happy cos i'm gaining new experience! :D

Today's a happy day cos xls said that i've improved and she looked happy with my improvement! (((: But I'm still very lousy lah. =.= Need to be more dilligent and stop slacking! Besides, I finally got a chance to play in ge prac! (it's been a long time since i got to sit down and play throughout the whole prac) I missed the play-in-dazu-and-have-fun feeling. Guess what? I felt that just now! :D That feeling is SHUANG! :D I LOVE MEANINGFUL DAZUS! <333

On a side note,

I LOVE NYCO!!! <3

2009-12-15T22:36:00.006+08:00

I just have to comment about this!

Together was damn funny today! The parts when Xiao Bei flaunted his newly-designed pants, walked in the streets in that BRIGHT RED (AA) pants, named it as what '超级无敌被风吹裤' and regreted wearing it when he was on a run were suuuuuuuuuuuuupeeeeeeerrrrrrrrr funny! I laughed non-stop, even after the commercial break kicked in! LOLS!

When I laughed like some siao char bor, my father told me, "Eh! Don't laugh at his pants okay! It used to be very fashionable in the 70s (the trumpet pants)!" LOOOOOOOOL!

So my father was siding him!

Anyway, I bought the latest issue of I-Weekly cos there's DYT on the coverpage. LOL! (Gosh im really crazy!) Lazy to type about whatever I've read. Interested? Go buy and read urself! hahaha!

2009-12-15T12:14:00.002+08:00

People are often surprised to know that I'm a single child, cos they feel that I don't look 'pampered'. But the fact is, I think I'm really pampered.

Cos I'm pampered, my life has been very smooth-sailing. Everyone's there for me, I get whatever I want. I'm just like a parasite that gain from others but don't reciprocate.

I'm beginning to feel that I'm very selfish. I like the freedom to make my own choices, but I think I've gone overboard. I always do whatever I like and never consider about what other people want. Take consoling as an example. I always put my values on others, expecting people to think the same way, yet I didn't even make the effort to understand what they were going through and why they did that.

Perhaps it's time for a change, time to be more sensitive towards others and stop being so individualistic. My parents should stop worrying about me cos it's my turn to worry about them. I should stop expecting things to go in my way all the time cos I need to think of others and respect their feelings.

Yup, that's the way to go, cos I'm not the only living being on Earth! (:

2009-12-14T22:49:00.008+08:00

Together.

Xiao Bei scolded Jian Hong for being a lousy host. At that moment, I started to wonder why he was so cruel and why did he do that to her. Cos it really spoiled my impression of him. Then towards the end, I realised that he had good intentions for doing that; he didnt want Jian Hong to be a host unwillingly, instead, she should do it with an aim so that life would be easier for her. Who knows, maybe she'll have better treatments if she's a top host? Haha, he's so.... sensitive and meticulous! DYT! <333

:D

2009-12-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

GOOD THING HE CAME BACK! He really didn't disappoint me! He's still very loyal to Ju Xiang! Haha! So good to see him protecting the family! Yamamoto Yasuke & Ju Xiang FTW! :D

Sadly, both Ju Xiang and he died soon after he returned. ): That episode, episode 8, was the most touching scene. I actually teared since Yamamoto Yasuke died, till Yue Niang buried her parents with bare hands. ZOMG. HAHA, YES IM CRAZY.

2009-12-12T16:39:00.002+08:00

Crap. I couldn't control myself, so I went on to watch 2 more episodes. (but it's partly becos my lunch was here, so I coult watch while I eat :P)

Sighs. What a disappointment. He left Ju Xiang to meet his ill father, yet he never came back. What a scumbag he is... I suddenly realised that he may not appear anymore. The show will move on to the next generation and Jeanette Aw will be seeing another guy but not DYT! Sighs... I hope he won't disappoint me; I hope he'll return to Ju Xiang again!

2009-12-12T14:28:00.003+08:00

Oh man, i'm so into DYT that im watching Little Nyonya now (didn't watch it when it was played on channel 8). Just finished the fourth episode, the part on how he rescued Ju Xiang out of all the obstacles and he's gonna marry Ju Xiang! WOOOOTS. My heart totally melted lah... <333 HAHAHAHHA! (oh shucks, i sound like a sicko.) Really look forward to the next episode. If i don't have to prac erhu and do hw, i would've watched the entire drama series an episode after another... SIGHS. Nvm, the next episode shall be my motivation to complete my work. MUAHAHAHA!

2009-12-08T12:14:00.006+08:00

Some people...

Some people just melt your heart when you see them... (yes, like Dai Yang Tian!)

Some people just make you feel comforted and hopeful when you hear them sing...

Some people are like your guiding lights when you're lost in the dark...

Some people just make you smile no matter how depressed you are...

Some people are like your handkerchief that dries your tears when you cry...

Some people are like your roots who support you as you grow...

Some people are like your guardian angels who will be there when you need them...

Some people...

are just fated to be with you! <3

Thanks to all those who have contributed in any way in my life! You've

shaped me into who I am today. Thanks once again and trust me, you

will never be forgotten! (=

2009-12-07T00:20:00.004+08:00

I admire Rose. She is the volunteer who worked with us in Cambodia. She looks like she's in her late thirties, and she's still single. She practically dedicated her life to the needy. She doesnt just help one beneficiary, but a few projects.

I remember this conversation very vividly.

Deb: I really respect Rose cos she's willing to give up everything in her life to help the needy.

Ms Tee: Don't pity her for giving up her life for that. A few years back, I met a nun who does volunteer work like Rose. I felt the same as you, so I told the nun about it. She told me that she didn't lose anything in life. In fact, she thanks God for giving her the opportunity to gain so much from helping these people.

Very noble of them eh? I've been thinking of achieving something great in life. Oh well, not really smth remarkable, but a lifelong achievement lah. But I'm an ordinary girl after all. I wanna lead a normal life and have my own family. You may say that I can achieve both simultaneously, but I want to commit myself fully to one of them; I don't want to be half-hearted. Sighs, shall see bah. If i've enough courage, maybe one day I'll give up building a new family and contribute more in voluntary work. (:

2009-12-06T22:13:00.006+08:00

BACK! (:

2 weeks in Cambodia... I guess I won't be blogging about it cos it's gonna be damn looooong! Furthermore I had been writing reflections every day in Cambodia. Nevertheless, I'll still blog a little abt the trip!

As FO2 was right before the trip, the fac comm has been seeing one another for 1 whole month, since promos ended. It feels very weird to not see them after the trip. lol! Really miss all the RUBBISH (also a synonym for Ningyu) that we create, all the niao-ings, hthts, singing sessions, star gazing etc. Haha!

All thanks to Ningyu, I've a new nickname-- Buddha (cos he thinks I look like a buddha and he broadcasted to the entire fac comm =.=). Damn funny, cos I told him that my sec 4 class used to call me Allah (Ah La), so he said I transformed from Muslim to Buddhist God. LOL!

Deborah is also very funny cos she always makes funny comments. Through this trip, she has a new signature word-- PHENOMENAL. She thought that all fac comm guys are PHENOMENAL. On a side note, her TUKTUK ACTION is also very PHENOMENAL. HAHA!

Minron also has signature phrases like 'Sounds like a plan?', 'Alright!', 'Sounds good!'. LOL!

OHOH! I've found out that Ms Ho and Ms Tee are very good at zero point! Ian and Wangchi too! Cos they'll cross the high barriers with their stunts (e.g. cartwheel and handstand). Should really watch the videos... DAMN PRO!

This trip has also let me realised that my CT rep is not as serious as I thought! He's actually the funniest guy in fac comm! haha! If you manage to see his photos on facebook, he has a very unique fashion taste (his chinese fan and a farmer hat-- culture fusion).

I think Cambodia girls are very pretty. They have natural dye (but that's due to malnutrition), sharp noses, big eyes with long eyelashes and slim bodies. :D

Ok that was random. Had farewell party for Junyang at Sherry's place. Ytd's BBQ experience was like a rehearsal for our GE chalet. HAHA! Oh! It was also my first time being Julian's passenger (yes, Julian can drive now!). Sighs, hope he'll still come back after he leaves...

After much consideration, I've decided to post this photo, cos 我越看越觉得他帅！

(though he looks a little gay in this photo, he's still shuai!) DAI YANG TIAN! <333

PS: I feel like doing something CRAZY... HEHEHEHH... (not related to dai yang tian btw!)

2009-11-18T00:04:00.002+08:00

OFF TO CAMBODIA! (((:

2009-11-09T21:46:00.001+08:00

whoaaaa im damn scared of everything. im living in fear sia...

2009-11-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

grrrrrrr. i want to give up.

2009-11-09T00:17:00.002+08:00

lol. im like having mood swings. was over the moon ytd, but began to feel scared today. guess what? i spotted to strands of sparkling white hair on my head this morning. i need to think less man... hahah! but critically lah! hmmm God please bless us till the day......

anyway, girls' outing today was FUN! :D im a bit tired, lazy to elaborate. MAYBE i'll upload the photos someday! :D

2009-11-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

BLEHHHHHHHHHHH! Wanted to try baked cheese pasta since i've all the ingredients. Unfortunately, my prego sauce grew mould. ): And i alrdy cooked my pasta halfway, so i had to cook it in the maggie mee way. SAD. ok i didnt cook it lah. It was my aunt who helped me salvage the problem. Should say that she's a good cook (just that it's a little too spicy)!

Anyway, im SUPERRRR happy today cos smth SUPERRRRRR good happened! Thank God for blessing us! :D Continue to bless us.... HAHAHA! PLEASE DONT RAIN ON 16 NOV!

On a random note, i just realised that im flying off next next wed! SO FAST!

2009-11-04T22:16:00.002+08:00

i think im gonna die soon. HAHA! *touch wood lah*

smth very weird happened to me today. when i got off my bed, i fell as i was walking. at first i thought i tripped. so i got up and continued walking. when i stood on my right leg, i collapsed again. only till then i felt that my right leg has prob. i tried standing up with my right leg, but it was so wobbly that it couldnt be straightened. WEIRD RIGHT! so i crawled to the chair in my study room and recovered after sitting for a while. this is extremely bizarre cos it has nvr occurred to me before.

just now, i merely scratched my ear gently and it bled! (i thought ears have the least blood among all our body parts) omg, smth's very wrong with me... nowadays i also drop a lot of hair, don't tell me im suffering frm...........

HAHA okok i think im exaggerating matters. well, im still ALIVE AND KICKING. nth is gonna happen to me! :D

2009-11-02T02:23:00.002+08:00

Just read a friend's blog. After reading, I feel proud of him, cos I realised that he has changed a lot over this year, for the better.

Frankly speaking, I didn't have a very good impression of him as a person in the past, cos he's always so slack and irresponsible. I rmb there's a point of time when he almost gave up on himself cos of a setback. Now, he's full of aspirations; he has a target in life and he works hard for it. He has also become a more sensible person. I'm really glad that he has managed to find meaning in his life.

On contrary, I'm changing for the worse. Why is life getting so tough? In the past, I'd nvr say give up no matter what, but now, I really wanna let go and surrender to save myself from anymore pain. (yes, the process is painful.) Perhaps I've turned into a coward. I'm no longer optimistic and strong-headed. I run away from difficulties. I have no aim, no confidence... I just let nature take its course, cos im scared of making mistakes again. Sighs. Why does life seem so tough that it's beyond my control? So tough that I alrdy have no idea what I should do. ):

2009-10-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

You know, I don't need anything from you. All I need is your care and understanding. It sucks when someone close to you cant understand you. It really sucks...

2009-10-19T23:30:00.003+08:00

Thank you layting, szemin and chewfei for the b'day surprise today! i was really surprised (though you guys seemed suspicious at certain times haha!) Just wanna let you know, I'm really really grateful to be your friend! Thanks for being there to share my joy and sorrows! I know I may be quite anal at times. Thanks for being able to put up with my low eq lol! Let's work hard for the tough year to come and may our friendship last forever! (ps: make sure im ur bridesmaid at your wedding k!)

As you guys alrdy knew, I'm a very random person. I don't know why I suddenly thought of Mrs Wong (my sec 3, 4 phy teacher) and began to miss her. VERY RANDOM right? To think of it, I realised that I havent seen her this yr. I shall make a trip to nanyang soon one day! I miss nyco too!

Being random, a random song suddenly popped up in my head. Maybe it's becos of Moonlight Resonance (cos it's one of its theme songs). It's a calm and soothing (maybe a little emo as well?) song. Quite nice. Shall post it here for all to listen! :D

Ice Cream - Fala Chen

Ice Cream

You talk to me
You speak with me
Don't sink before you rise baby
Don't fade away

You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the come we had
Feels like a world away

Who's to say
We'll be ok
We will make it through the night
Don't wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

Cause we're the same
And i know that we'll never change
Look i bought your favorite ice cream
I dont wanna see it melt away
If you walk out now

I don't know if we're gonna be the same
Baby just talk with me
Cause i want you to stay here with me

2009-10-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

WHEEEEEEE! Thank you layting for the bday treat! Thanks to layping for the orea cheesecake too! (PS: i think my fav orea cheesecake is YOURS.(:) Though it was a very simple dinner, it's was really sweet! Thanks and all the best for tmr's match k! HAHA!

On a random note, i think i gotta change my blogskin soon. I think there's smth wrong with the picture and background. :/

其实痛苦也是一种快乐, don't you agree? (:

2009-10-13T00:09:00.004+08:00

no more.

GAME OVER.

2009-10-10T08:58:00.002+08:00

Oh shucks. I think I've been leading a stressful life. LOL! I'm one who dreams a lot. I dream whenever I sleep, or rather, I rarely don't dream. Last night, I had a bizarre dream of getting bitten by a prawn. So I decided to find out what my dream meant.

I came across this website which helps to interpret dreams.

http://www.dreammoods.com/

I typed several dreams that I've had and they most of them say 'you're trying to escape frm the harsh reality', 'you want to return to the past when u were carefree', 'you are under great stress' or 'something is bugging you'. OH MAN.

On contrary, when I typed the dreams that I often had in pri sch (e.g. jumping), it means joy or to leap forward and face reality.

Haha, try to interpret your dreams after you make a dream! (:

2009-10-05T19:07:00.013+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - A Moment Like This

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me
Would you agree

It's almost that feelin'
We've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment like this
Some people search forever
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's hapenning to me
For a moment like this

Everything Changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain

Well I may be dreamin'
But still lie awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

Could this be the reign of love above
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this

Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
For a moment
Like this
Oh, like this

Hmmm... So when will my moment come? The moment when I give my result slip a special kiss cos of good grades. Ahhh... I wonder if this moment will ever come. :/

2009-10-03T23:19:00.005+08:00

Part II

In the midst of mugging...

sheila: Argh. I'm very irritated with my baby hair cos they're too short to be clipped up!

nette: Clip lower?

sheila: No use. It'll still fall off cos it's too short and fine. You know, my fren laughed at me for this cos I have baby hair while people are balding.

nette: LOL!!!

After mugging, nette went to buy shampoo. That's when she made me realise why I have baby hair (rmb my post on how irritated i was with my baby hair?).

nette: Eh, what shampoo do you use?

sheila (thinking): Ba4 Wang2... Has hair revitalizing effect... I always start applying shampoo on my hair frm the front... THAT'S WHY I HAVE NEW GROWN FRINGE!(shant dwell into why im using such a shampoo. it's a long story. u can ask me if u're interested in knowing!)

sheila: OH! I KNOW WHY I HAVE BABY HAIR ALRDY!

nette: *puzzled*

sheila: *starts to explain...*

nette: *cant stop laughing* What a coincidence! I was thinking of getting a shampoo that has hair fall control!

sheila: haha! then hesitate no more, just get Ba Wang. I'm a living example.

nette: *hesitates* but but... i dont want to have overgrown hair like Jacky Chan's... *points at Jacky Chan's thick hair...*

sheila: if the spokesperson doesnt have thick black hair, then the advertisement won't be convincing!

nette: but... why does the man at the top seem like he's balding?

sheila: *speechless*

LOOOOOOOOOOOL! Jeanette totally sparked me with the reason of why I have new grown hair. Perhaps I should change the direction of applying shampoo onto my head. lol!

Well, if you're looking for a hair revitalising shampoo, try Ba Wang. :D

2009-10-03T22:10:00.006+08:00

Part I

Mugged with nette today. OH, i just realised that we spent our MAFs this yr and last yr tgt. Haha! Sadly, we didnt go out and play like last yr. Oh! Reminds me of another thing! Last yr during MAF, we wanted to ask hyc out to celebrate maf with us but he rejected us. This yr when we didnt celebrate, we met him at cwp. -.-

Anyway, today's a really crappy day. We had dinner at cwp ytd. We met a few pri sch frens there. Today, we saw the SAME people again at cwp. Lol lah! Like us, they must be thinking, 'what?! you again?!' LOL!

The most epic one was meeting hyc at the foodcourt. When we saw each other, my eyes widened in tandem with his. I went, "OH MY..." (cos we hardly meet each other in woodlands area) as I tapped jeanette's bag. She started waving to him and it took him quite some time to recognize her. HAHA! He's still as LOUD as ever. His laughter still sounds like a machine gun. lol! The only thing diff abt him is his hair. Junfeng's too. They've turned GOLD. =.=

2009-09-30T23:00:00.002+08:00

wooooooots. i felt earthquake for the first time in my life! i just woke up from my nap then and i thought i was feeling giddy or my body's vibrating and is gonna rupture. lol! my mother scolded me for being stupid and didnt evacuate my house. but pls lah, if i thought it was just an after effect of my nap, y would i even think of escaping? LOL! but sad, this also means that there'll be many deaths. ):

Anyway, this has proven that my PI topic is INDEED A POTENTIAL EMERGENCY. (cos my PI was on earthquake in Singapore) Though we may not have earthquake, we can be affected by earthquakes of neighbouring countries! Muahahaha!